Saturday, October 9th, 2004
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12:30 am - wow
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well today was a shoker things were said that i thought were never true. its weird like three weeks ago i was talking to my mom about something and today it happend my mom was al what the hell you like told me the future haha. i dunno maybe i just have good insticts. well i didnt get to see justin today and it sucked. i miss him so much and i only havent seen him today. it was funny i called him just to tell him i love him and he was all i love you too babe. i cant wait till tomarrow im going to a show and its going to be awweome like i hope justn can go and my mom said he can spend the nught so he didnt have to go home all late. i was all YES!!! well im going downstairs to smoke a drag with my momma haha jkjk well she is and im joinging her. PEAAACE OUUUT
current mood:  touched
current music: the fan
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Monday, October 4th, 2004
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7:38 pm
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eben though Justin doesnt have a livejournal i know he would be the one i want to marry. i love him so much we are going so well and we dont have anymore problems its sooooooo awesome.
current mood:  horny
current music: Saliva- Always
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Friday, September 10th, 2004
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9:02 pm - I LOVE
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my life is going so good. i have found the perfect guy. i know every girl says that about there new boyfriend but know one will ever know how i feel for Justin besides me. But Clarissa was right i have to say she is always right. I was going to make new friends in high scool and find that special guy that will treat me good. I have. I am the most happiest person on the earth.
CLARISSA AND TIMMIE
TOGETHER FOREER
AND SOON TO BE ME AND JUSTIN<33333333333
current mood: loved
current music: JUSTINS LOVELY VOICE
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Tuesday, August 10th, 2004
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8:51 pm - ...
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So far this week has sucked and today was the only day i got to see Shain and I wont see him until Friday and thats if I see him then. Friday will be ou two week mark and then I can really call him my boyfriend. Im starting to like him a lot. I dont love hime yet like most teenage girls say you love someone the first week you go out. And yes I have done that before. I hope our relationship will go far.
High School is going to be a different element. Nothing like Jr. High but Im ready for it. I love things with a new challenge. I know I am going to face drugs but I wont start smoking again. Im not going to lie I do miss the feeling of being stoned. All of my friends think Im going to start up again but then again they dont have a lot of faith in me:/ Well I dont think I will.
current mood:  blah
current music: Rush- Tom Sawyer
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Saturday, August 7th, 2004
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12:08 am - HAHA
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Thursday, August 5th, 2004
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12:07 am - So..
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Today was soo bad. Like I heard all this stuff about shain and it was really upsetting and bad. The stuff I heard was really bad and I was in tears like for an hour on the phone with Clarissa. She such a good friend. She listens to my shit and helps alot. I am still with Shain. I was going to breaak up with him but I relized how much I like him and how much I care about him a lot. so now i dont know but i am trying to get everything worked out.
current mood:  calm
current music: ICP- Dead Body Man
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Sunday, August 1st, 2004
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1:14 pm - Yo
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Well i got my jouranl fixed. Its bad ass now!! Thanx Clarissa for helping me<33 I dont know what I would do in life if I didnt have you! Well I'm going back out with Shain and I think its goin g to work this time. Love stars with friends, grows with relationship, builds to love then your are everlasting. I finally think I doing something right for a change and not going to mess this up like I have in all my past relationships. I looked at them as game and now I relized that its not a game and I have feelings for someone and there real and not just a game. Shain has done so many things for me and everyone sees him as what he used to be in the past. We all havea past and its your own choice to change you. You can never change your past but you can change wh you are today. I see that in Shain and I dont care if anyone does or not. People give me so much shit for dating him but I dont care, they dont see him as I see him. Well I know that my feelings for shain will soon enough grow into love and all thats going to matter to me is him. I dont really get deep into relationships ever sence I got hurt with my firstr love and from there on out I played games and now Shain has thought me that its okay to open up. We all are affraid to get hurt, I mean come on who want to get hurt its no fun. But when you do get hurt dont think about the bad times you had with the person think about the good time. Once you get hurt and you get hurt real bad where its hard to date again or trust again that means you once were in love and that you had someone very special and dear to you and yu never want to leave them. People say you only get one true love and I myself has said that but I relized that maybe thats not true because people go all there lives not having that one true one and are blanck inside. I think if you want it to be your one true one you have to make it that way. Only you can change how you feel or how you want to feel.
Love ya lots Clit and I hope you arent so affraid this time<33 try to let the wall down and let him come into your life and into your heart and I know your affraid of getting hurt again like you did with Robotlol. He wont ever hurt you like Robot did. I love you<333
current mood: touched
current music: Losing You- Love is Red
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Wednesday, March 17th, 2004
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7:22 pm - MAN!!!
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This past couple weeks were pretty tough. Things at home arent going good at all. I got this quote on e-mail and it was like really touching to me. "If GOD brings it to you he helps you through it" when i read this everything was going wrong in my life and now i look at it all as a challenge and i will get through whatever comes my way. Yes itll be hard but ill always remember that god is helping me through it and that when something gets really bad that it cant get any worse so itll have to get better. The only thing really helping me not fall apart are my close friends/ roomate hahaha!! School is almost over and ill be in 9th grade soon and by then hopefully things will be alot better.
current mood:  indescribable
current music: Bob Marley-Everything Is Gonna Be Alright
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Friday, March 5th, 2004
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4:02 pm
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omg my dad went to florida and i had to stay here i really wanted to go with him but no i had to stay. im staying on a boat with my grandpa in ventura harbor so i have to get up really early for school.
current mood: peaceful
current music: my dog bark
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Thursday, February 26th, 2004
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10:11 pm
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Today i didnt go to school. I slept in it was so fun. I sat around all day and did nothing and the best part about it all my dad didnt find out. Well im really tired even though i got to sleep all day. <3
Im going to my moms house this weekend and its going to be sooo much fun.
I think im likeing kyle again we were flirting alot today and kissing alot and it was fun.HAHA well im going away for the weekend and so is kyle so it will be cool ecause im not going to be sitting on my ass at home being board and missing kyle <3 kyle miller
current mood:  flirty
current music: cars outside my window
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Wednesday, February 25th, 2004
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10:32 pm - wow
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I cant belive it my dad isnt letting me see my mom. I hate him with passtion. Life is shit and everything is going down hill. Today sucked ass, i didnt finish my homework and i found out that my little sisters dad is telling my 8 year old sister that my mom and i dont love her. It makes me cry when i call my sister and i tell her i love her and she doesnt want to tell me she loves me because she is affraid to get in trouble by her dad. I try to call my sister sometimes and i always get the answering machine and i leave messages and never get any returns and when i get a hold of her she ask me why i never call. Now there is my dad. He is going away on a trip for work and he is making me go to my grandpas house all the way out in oxnard and i will have to stay there till he comes home and the worst part is that im not allowed to see my mom because my dad doent trust my mom to take me to school.
i just wish everything will go away and things could be back to normal and i could have my mom and my little sister back.
current mood:  sad
current music: the rain
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Tuesday, February 24th, 2004
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8:24 pm
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My life is rated...
haha i took this
today was ok
I LOVE YOU CLIT
HAHA BINKERS HUMPER
current mood:  crazy
current music: IRON MAN~OZZY
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Monday, February 23rd, 2004
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10:43 pm - A Poem
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A RELATIONSHIP LIKE A ROSE
HOW LONG IT LAST
NO ONE KNOWS
LOVE CAN ERASE AN AWFUL PAST
LOVE CAN BE YOURS
YOULL SEE IT LAST
IT MAKES YOU SIGN
TO HAVE IT LEAVE YOUD RATHER DIE
YOU HOPE YOU'VE FOUND THE SPECIAL ROSE
CAUSE YOU LOVE AND CARE FOR THAT
ONE YOU CHOSE
~ASHLI
current mood:  artistic
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6:37 pm
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I think im haveing feelings for kyle again. I donno ever sence we have started to hang out its like he has changed a whole lot. Its a good change though, hes really funny and hes sweet. Its cool but i havent been hanging out with DJ that much anymore hes like an asswhole to me. I dont know what i did to make him such an ass but whatever if he wants to be an ass than let him it just shows that hes an ass haha well today was really cool. I didnt get in a fight with my dad and i had an ok day at school. So maybe this week will be cool
I <3 YOU CLIT HAHAHA
current mood:  confused
current music: not important
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Sunday, February 22nd, 2004
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2:37 pm - WTF!!
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WTF dude this weekend sucked ass. I went to the drag racing and it was raining so hard and i got soked. Plus the drag racing got canceled bacause of the rain so i didnt even get to see the cars race. Then we come home and do nothing the rest of the night which sucked real bad. Clit and i went over to kyles house and hung out there till mid-night and i didnt have my cell so my dad came over to kyles house and told us to come home. So when i got home my fucking lame ass dad was all yelling at me and would stfu. So clit and i just blew him off and went up stairs. This morning suck to because i got up at noon and there goes half my day already. So clit and i asked our parents if we could go to mellrose an go shopping and her dad said oh we can go to the mall because of the time so i asked my dad if we could go and hes al" i dont know, look at the time." So then i got all pissed off because i always do shit with him and i always blow off all my plans for him and he never says thanx or anything like that. So i slamed his door when i walked out and he comes out of his room and was all"you can forget it" whatever hes a dumb ass anyways. so im just going to do my own shit toady and blow him off. I fucking hope that this week will be better but i bet it wont knowing my luck.
current mood:  pissed off
current music: guns and roses~sweet child of mine
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Friday, February 20th, 2004
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4:21 pm - YAAAAAAAAA
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TODAY IS THE WEEKEND AND I AM SOOOOO HAPPY. I CANT WAIT TILL TONIGHT BECAUSE I GET TO SEE MY BESTEST FRIEND IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD CLARISSA. WOW TODAY WAS REALLY LONG AND I COULDNT WAIT TO GO HOME. IM NOT GOING TO THE MOVIES TONIGHT WHICH SUX BUT OH WELL. WELL GOING TO GO EAT ALOT SO BYE BYE FOR NOW
current mood:  hungry
current music: EVERY ROSE HAS ITS THORNS~GUNS AND ROSES
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Thursday, February 19th, 2004
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4:01 pm
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I cant wait till this weekend. Im going to the movies on friday with a bunch of friends and we are going to see barbarshop 2. I heard it was really funny. Today was really boring i didnt do much at all. I also cant wait till i go see the drag races. Its going to be so much fun. I dont feel like going to shool tomarrow i feel like sleeping in all day. But if i dont go to school i wont be able to go to the movies so i guess ill go to school.
current mood:  tired
current music: guns and roses~sweet child of mine
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Tuesday, February 17th, 2004
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8:18 pm - Boring
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Today was another boring day at school. The only fun part was when i fliped out on this chick named marranda during last period.hahaha she was being a bitch to this girl that sits next to me and i got sick of it because they were ganging up on her so i told marranda off. she was trying to change the subject so noone would look at her like a dumb ass. it was funny . i told her that she fucking stupid for telling people she had sex (which she didnt) just to be cool and that she missed her period! then she thought she was bad ass because she told people that she snorted coke and had to go to the hospital. hahaha she couldnt even sniff a sharrpy when i asked her. that was like the only good thing that happend to today. I cant wait till yhis weekend till i go see the drag races with clarissa a.k.a. clit there is going to be so many hot guys there!! YAAAAAAAAAAA i cant wait. LUV YA LOTS CLIT!!!!!!!
current mood:  cheerful
current music: GUNS AND ROSES~KNOCKEN ON HEAVENS DOOR
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Monday, February 16th, 2004
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6:28 pm - wow!!
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This weekend was really boring. I did nothing all weekend. i found out that my mom has shingels(like chiken pocks but worse) and she has to go back into the hospital like always. I guess im not as sad as i was when i found out. I finally relized that shit happens and you have to live with it the best you can. I know shell get better and if she doesnt and leaves the earth then she is at a better place and wont have to hurt anymore. But i know for sure she is to strong to die and will pull through this like everything else. I dont want to go to schoolt tomarrow. I dont want to get up either to go to schoolHAHAH!! 2 MORE MONTHS TILL MY BIRTHDAY YAAAAAAAA !!! i hope this week will go better than my weekend. I know next weekend will be way better because im going to a drag race with my friend Clarissa and our dads it will be fun.
current mood:  bored
current music: Ozzy~Iron Man
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Tuesday, February 10th, 2004
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9:05 pm - ouch!
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Today at school was boring like always. It was really windy and cold. I still havent told Chad that i iike him i guess im afraid to because hel think im wierd or something. I dont know. Well i got into another fight with my dad and hes being a big asshole. I just wished he would understand me or what im going through.I hope tomarrow will be a better day and i will not get into a fight with my dad haha like that will ever happen. The only thing thats really good in my life right now besides that my moms getting better is my friends at school.<3 and of course Clarissa aka clit haha<3. So if i didnt have them i dont know what i would do!
current mood: sad
current music: Blurry-Puddle of Mudd
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